ASTNovels Chapter 118 It's as if the whole world and 8 worlds have collapsed
Chapter 118 It's as if the whole world and 8 worlds have collapsed
Such Ji Weiyang made Zhanyan a little at a loss. ".?She pulled her hand away from his palm, and said tearfully, "Weiyang, don't be like this, okay? As you said, you will let me go for one year, and you will give my child to Lu Anqi..."
Those words were still in her ears, how could she forget them.
Ji Weiyang wanted to slap himself twice at this time, how could he have said such stupid words at that time. "Yanyan, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I didn't say those words on purpose, can you forgive me?"
Zhanyan smiled wryly and shook her head, tears streaming down her pale cheeks.This is no longer a question of forgiveness or not, but that she is really tired, her heart is riddled with holes, and she has lost the strength to love.
When he lit the sky full of bright fireworks for her, when he used his body to protect her at the moment of the car accident, she was really touched by him, but why every time when she thought she was about to seize happiness, did he Will break it by hand.
When his fist landed on Gao Yuxuan, she was really sad. Didn't he even have the minimum trust in her?Still, in his Ji Weiyang's eyes, she is just a woman who is prone to Qin Muchu and flirtatious!
"Yanyan, it doesn't matter if you don't forgive me, but don't cry anymore." Ji Weiyang was at a loss, and wiped away the tears on her face with his fingertips indiscriminately.
All along, what he hated the most was to make her cry.But he was the one who hurt her the most. "Why, why do you want to lie to me that you took away the child on purpose? If Du Xiaomo didn't say it today, are you planning to hide it from me forever? Hold on"
"Yes." Zhanyan replied simply and resolutely, with a pair of bright eyes washed by tears, shining with an unusually firm streamer.It's just that the bitterness of that halo is so bitter that it reaches people's hearts.
"Ji Weiyang, can you understand that feeling? It's as if the whole world has collapsed. Letting you know this kind of pain is equivalent to letting you hurt once, but if you hurt, my child can't come back, so It doesn't make any sense at all."
"Yanyan..." Ji Weiyang only called out once, but was choked up and speechless.He stretched out his arms and pulled Zhanyan into his arms, holding her tightly. If possible, he really hoped to integrate her into his blood.
His chin rested on Zhanyan's thin shoulders, and where she couldn't see, his dark ink eyes were moist. "Yanyan, let's start again."
Forget all the painful past, their way, and start over.This time, he will love her with all his heart, love her, and won't let her suffer any grievances.
But Zhanyan gently pushed him away, raised her chin slightly, and looked at him with a wry smile, "It's not the beginning, but the end."
Gently touching his sculpted handsome face with his gentle palms, he stared deeply, his voice was soft like a veil, but it revealed infinite sadness. "Weiyang, I really tried my best to love you in the past. In order to love you, I would rather face everything alone. Every time you broke my heart, I kept saying to myself: Weiyang didn't do it on purpose, he just Because Xiaoyan's departure is very sad, don't sprinkle salt on his wound... But, Wei Yang, my heart is made of flesh, it hurts, it hurts..."
Zhanyan's hands tightly covered her heart, and her beautiful brows were tightly knit together.
"Stop it, Yanyan, I'm sorry, I'm an asshole, I shouldn't have treated you that way." Ji Weiyang hugged her again with distress, her words, word by word, were like sharp knives cutting into his chest Heart.
Zhanyan was trapped in his arms, her cheek was buried in his chest, and the clothes on his chest were wet with cold tears, "Weiyang, I really don't have the strength to continue to love."
"It doesn't matter if you don't have strength, Yanyan, let me love you this time." Ji Weiyang held her cold hands instead, and gently kissed her on his lips.
"Yanyan, from now on, I will promise you whatever you say. If you don't like my relationship with Lu Anqi, I will never see her again. Yanyan, whatever is fine, as long as we don't break up."
It was the first time for Zhanyan to see Ji Weiyang at a loss, and she knew that he must be sad and heartbroken now.However, she couldn't even take care of herself, so how could she comfort him.Her heart is already bleeding, and she really needs time for the wound on her heart to heal.
"Really, do you listen to me?"
"Yes." Ji Weiyang nodded solemnly.
Zhanyan smiled bitterly, "Okay, then, let's separate for a while, Weiyang, we all need to calm down."
Ji Weiyang stared at her in silence for a long time.He doesn't need time to calm down, he has always loved her calmly and rationally.
However, he has already scarred her all over, and blindly persecuting her will only make them drift away.
"Okay, let's separate for a while first." He nodded helplessly, his voice was low and depressed, "Yanyan, I will stand where I am and wait for you to turn around. Promise me, don't make me wait too long, okay?"
Zhanyan bit her pale lips tightly and remained silent, because she couldn't answer at all.
Maybe it was because of talking for too long, and Zhanyan felt a little uncomfortable again, she lay down on the hospital bed again, her body curled up into a ball, the wound on her leg hurt non-stop, and she only broke out in a cold sweat due to the pain.
Ji Weiyang stayed by her bed all the time, wishing he could hurt her and hurt her.
In the afternoon, the sun was shining right outside the window, but Ji Weiyang's dark pupils couldn't shine a single ray of light, like a deep abyss where the sun had never been seen.
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After that day, Ji Weiyang really did not appear in the world of Zhanyan again.He promised her to be separated for a while, and he did.
In the early morning, when Tang Feng walked into the CEO's office, Ji Weiyang was sleeping on the sofa, covered with a black suit jacket, and there was still half a cup of dry red on the coffee table.
There were scattered documents on the desk, and it was not difficult to see that he was working all night again.
"Hey, I said President Ji, it's time to wake up. With such a desperate way of working, do you want to die young?" Tang Feng crossed his legs and sat carelessly on the single seat beside him.
Ji Weiyang was staring at the ceiling above his head, pressed his aching temples with two fingers, and looked sideways at Tang Feng, "I asked you to investigate, how is it?"
Tang Feng shrugged lazily. He also didn't want to mention that part of the past too much. "Just as you know, car accident, accidental miscarriage, mental depression. A doctor in the same department replaced the case. There was some conflict with Zhanyan before. It seems to be because of the matter of the deputy chief physician. I have already dealt with it."
"That's all?" Ji Weiyang frowned slightly.
"Well, there is no evidence pointing to Lu Anqi." Tang Feng said again.
Ji Weiyang was silent for a long time, his eyes were scattered in the corner, and he couldn't see what he was thinking.Afterwards, he did not continue the topic.Instead, he lifted his coat, got up and said, "The project of rebuilding Xindu Mall should be signed today. Let the driver prepare the car."
Tang Feng sat in his seat leisurely, with a lazy posture, "The case has been negotiated a long time ago, the signing is just a formality, and the cooked duck can still fly. I'll just go, you hurry home and make up for it." Let’s get some sleep, I’ve been up all night.”
"No need, there will be a meeting after signing the contract." Ji Weiyang coughed a few times, his handsome face was a bit haggard, but his pitch-black eyes were still shrewd and sharp.
"I also canceled that executive meeting of yours for you. Hurry up and go home, don't I see you off? Mr. Ji!" Tang Feng made it clear that he came prepared. That woman Yan made herself look like a ghost.
Ji Weiyang had no choice but to pick up his coat and get up, but he also made Tang Feng a gesture, "I want to add [-]% of the profit to the Xindu contract, you can handle it. I'll go first."
"Hey, I said..." Before Tang Feng could resist, Ji Weiyang had already walked out of the office, and the only answer he had was a slamming door.
After leaving the company, Ji Weiyang drove directly back to the hilltop villa. When he walked into the living room, the servant was cleaning.
"Sir, why are you back? Have you had breakfast yet?" The nanny was slightly taken aback when she saw Ji Weiyang.He hasn't been home for a long time.
"Well, make me a cup of tea and make some porridge." Ji Weiyang put the briefcase aside, and then sat on the sofa wearily.
He closed his eyes, and half leaned on the sofa to take a nap. The two new hourly workers were packing up, making noises non-stop.Ji Weiyang frowned impatiently, and asked in a deep voice, "What are you doing? Can't you be quiet?"
The two didn't notice Ji Weiyang at first, but a sudden sound made people jump. One of them slipped his hand, and the cardboard box he was carrying fell down with a bang, and the contents inside were scattered all over the floor, including children's clothes , shoes, toys and so on.
"I'm sorry, I'm sorry." The part-time worker knelt on the ground in a panic, and quickly picked up the things into the cardboard box.
"Don't move around!" Ji Weiyang suddenly growled, his deep eyes tightly locked on those things on the ground.
Coincidentally, the nanny came out of the kitchen with tea, handed it over tremblingly, and explained, "Sir, these things have been piled up in the basement for a long time, I don't see any use for them, let them clean them up."
Ji Weiyang didn't even look at her, his eyes never moved away from those things, he just said two words coldly, "Get out."
The nanny was slightly stunned, but she was quite sensible, and led the two hourly workers to leave quickly.
In the huge villa, there was an instant of deathly silence.Ji Weiyang got up, staggered and picked up the scattered things from the ground one by one, hugging them tightly in his arms.
There are a lot of things, and a big box is full. It can be seen how much Zhanyan was looking forward to the arrival of this child.There are all kinds of toys for children, including building blocks, cars, and beautiful Barbie dolls. The styles of clothes are male and female, but most of them are girls. The pink and tender colors are like peach blossoms in full bloom in April.Presumably, the pregnant woman didn't know boys and girls at first, so she bought some of them. Later, when she was four months old, the one who showed her beauty should be a girl, so all the later purchases were girls' things.
Ji Weiyang held the child's little clothes in the palm of his hand. The pure cotton texture was extraordinarily soft and delicate. He stroked the clothes lightly, as if stroking the delicate skin of the child.
Ji Weiyang buried his face in his clothes, shrugged his shoulders, and tears fell silently, wetting the small clothes.These are things that once belonged to his children, but unfortunately, they are no longer used.Xiaoyan, whom he longed for and expected so much, could never come back.
And all of this was his fault. He had always thought highly of himself, but he couldn't even protect his beloved woman and child.If he hadn't been a deserter back then, if he had insisted on guarding Zhanyan's side despite everything, at this moment, his little Yan was already in his arms, and he was already calling him 'Daddy' in a childish voice.
There is always a word in this world called "too late to regret". In this world, money can buy everything, but you can't buy medicine for regret.He looked at those beautiful Barbie dolls, every little face was very similar to his little face.
Ji Weiyang found a yellowed color ultrasound photo in the cardboard box, with Zhanyan's name and the time of the examination written on it.The photo was still a dark mass, but he knew that it was his Xiaoyan, the only photo of Xiaoyan left.His cold fingertips gently touched every part of the photo. He couldn't tell where the child's little hands and feet were. At this time, Xiaoyan hadn't formed yet, but this photo proved that she had once been real. existed.
A scorching teardrop fell on the color ultrasound photo and blurred out.Ji Weiyang pressed his palm on his heart, and he felt that even breathing was painful.At this moment, at this moment, he felt the pain that Zhanyan had suffered.
He held those things in a daze for a whole day, and then carefully rewrote and folded the clothes one by one and put them in the cardboard box. He did each of them very lightly and slowly, as if he was saying his last goodbye .
Finally, he set those things on fire in the garden and burned them.
These belong to Xiaoyan, so she should go to heaven to accompany Xiaoyan.The only thing left was the yellowed color ultrasound photo. Ji Weiyang folded the photo and put it in his wallet.He remembered that there was a picture of a child in his assistant's wallet. Once, Ji Weiyang saw him showing off with the driver Xiao Zhang and said: Look, this is my son. He is two years old. Calling Dad in my arms.
Ji Weiyang was already at the top of the pyramid, he seldom envied anyone, but at that moment, he was envious.
Now, he finally has a picture of the child in his wallet, but his little face is unable to call him 'Daddy'.
Ji Weiyang really hated, but the only one he could hate was himself, he didn't know how to cherish, so God took Xiaoyan away.His wife and children were separated, and he really deserved this ending.
Ji Weiyang sat on the wooden chair in the courtyard all night, the dim street lamp behind him made his shadow long and lonely.
The north wind howled, and the bare sycamore branches were covered with a layer of snow, swaying slightly in the north wind, and the snowflakes scattered and fell.Ji Weiyang lifted his chin slightly, and looked in the direction of the bedroom blankly. He remembered that the first time he brought Zhanyan here was the second day after the completion of the villa. At that time, Zhanyan looked very happy. She was standing in the bedroom In front of the window, he happily said to him: I want to plant many, many plane trees in the garden.
He was a little strange, girls didn't like to plant flowers and plants, but she wanted to plant that kind of towering tree.At that time, he replied lightly: up to you.But the eyes following her were full of pampering.In fact, it's fine to grow anything, as long as she likes it, she is his wife and the hostess here.Ji Weiyang once thought that he could lock her here for the rest of his life. He thought that whenever he came home, she would definitely be here waiting for him.But now, he finally understands that it is easy to lock a person, but it is too difficult to lock a heart.
When it was daylight, Ji Weiyang drove away from the villa on the top of the mountain. The dark green Land Rover drove aimlessly on the highway, and unknowingly came to the gate of the Health Bureau.
It was the time to go to work in the morning, and the staff walked into the office building one after another.
Ji Weiyang put his arm on the car window, staring at the front with deep eyes for a moment, and that petite figure was reflected in his ink eyes, and he couldn't get rid of it.
He saw that she was wearing an off-white woolen coat, with long hair and shawls, and she didn't wear a hat or gloves on such a cold day. Her small face was pale, but her black eyes were as bright and clear as ever.It's like trying to suck the soul of a person into it.She walked with the two comrades, talking happily, with a faint smile on the corner of her lips, and dimples on her cheeks.It seems that she has begun to adapt and integrate into this circle, yes, his appearance has always been extremely smart, without him, she can still live well.
Ji Weiyang's gaze followed her until the figure completely disappeared from sight.But he couldn't recover for a long time.He has always kept his promise and will not disturb her life anymore. After many days of separation, time has not diluted the love. Instead, the longing has grown wildly like weeds.
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It’s another new year, I wish all the good things to follow you, the boss to pay attention to you, the sickness to hide from you, the car to let you go, the lover to love you deeply, the pain to stay away from you, the happiness to follow you, and everything to follow you!
Happy New Year girls, Shuishui blows a big kiss, okay~~
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