ASTNovels Chapter 517`: Self-blame
Chapter 517`: Self-blame
After Fei Yinan learned that Song Ruyi's intelligence had degenerated to such an extent, he was shocked, even unbelievable.
But when he really saw Song Ruyi lying on the hospital bed like a child, he had to accept that this was the truth.
When Song Rujian saw Fei Yinan, she immediately greeted him sweetly and called out his name.This made Fei Yinan feel a little relieved, at least she hadn't completely forgotten him.
But what followed was a deep sense of loss. Song Ruyi didn't forget who he was, but she seemed to have almost forgotten all the past experiences.Now she basically couldn't remember who Fei Yinan was to her, so she treated him as a friend.
Although he knows that this is already a normal thing under the current circumstances, and that Song Ruyi may sometimes not even remember that Xiao Baozi is her daughter, Fei Yinan still feels powerless about this fact. , because there was nothing he could do.Especially after the doctor told him that in Song Ruyi's situation, it was almost impossible to recover.
"Then... is there any other way to improve her intelligence level?" Fei Yinan tried to use other methods to solve Song Ruyi's problem, "Even if it doesn't return to the previous level, even if it improves a little bit, it's good. Yeah...or, remind her of everything before?"
"Well," the doctor hesitated for a moment, and replied cautiously, "I don't think there is such a possibility. Because the patient's impairment is not only in intelligence, but also logical thinking ability, comprehension ability and other abilities, including... ...memory. Therefore, it may be really difficult to improve her intelligence level! It is a good thing if she can recover, but if she cannot recover, she may be like this for the rest of her life. You must have Mentally prepare..."
"Then...does she need to stay in the hospital all the time?" Fei Yinan couldn't help feeling a little discouraged when he heard the doctor's almost negative attitude towards all possibilities. However, in the next second, he seemed to suddenly remember something and was worried. He asked the doctor again.
"That's not necessary, it's just that her current condition is not too stable and she needs to stay in the hospital for observation for a period of time. After a while, her condition stabilizes and she can be discharged from the hospital." The doctor replied, after thinking about it, he ordered "However, with her current state, she can't take care of herself basically, and I'm afraid she can't live without people around her. So, you must arrange someone to take care of her..."
Hearing this, Fei Yinan sighed, nodded, thanked the doctor, and left the office.
When she returned to the ward, Song Ruyi had already fallen asleep.
Fei Yinan stood beside Song Ruyi's bed, looking at her peaceful sleeping face, feeling very complicated in his heart.
Sure enough, she was only six years old. He remembered that she used to suffer from insomnia occasionally, and she would fall asleep only when she was very tired from work. Now that her intelligence has regressed, all the troubles in her heart have disappeared, and it has become easier to sleep Woke up.Moreover, Song Ruyi now looks like a child in everything except her appearance, and even her sleeping appearance has become so defenseless, so cute, like a sleeping beauty.
Thinking that Song Ruyi would never have any worries or sadness in the future, Fei Yinan couldn't help but smile.
But in an instant, it was replaced by self-blame.
Fei Yinan sat in front of the hospital bed, tucked the blanket for Song Ruyi, and then held her hand outside.
He still clearly remembers that she used to apply hand cream every time before going to bed, so that her hands are still tender and tender, and it still seems to have the faint fragrance of that hand cream.However, after her intelligence level deteriorated, her previous little habits also disappeared.
Fei Yinan still remembered that every time she slept in the past, her hands and feet would always get cold.But after being sick for a while, my hands became warm instead.
Fei Yinan stroked Song Ruyi's hand, stared at her familiar face, and couldn't help but shed warm tears when he looked at the corner of his eyes.
"I'm sorry... Ruyi, I'm sorry... It's all my fault, it's all my fault for not taking good care of you..."
If he knew that Song Ruyi would become like this in the end, he would definitely stop her from doing that kind of work back then!He is almost remorseful now, why didn't he pay more attention to Song Ruyi's matter back then?Why didn't she check what substances she was exposed to on a daily basis?
"It's all my fault for being too careless. If I can be more careful, all these pains can be avoided, and you will definitely not become what you are now..."
Ever since he could remember, Fei Yinan knew that crying was useless. Not only could it not solve any problems, but it was also a sign of cowardice.But this time, apart from crying with sadness, he really didn't know what to do.Fei Yinan felt that at this moment, he seemed unable to do anything other than expect a miracle.
But no matter what, with Fei Yinan's character, he still wouldn't cry bitterly. After realizing that no matter how sad he was, he couldn't change anything, Fei Yinan sniffed and wiped away a few tears from his cheeks , held Song Ruyi's hand even tighter, and said to the sleeping girl: "But don't worry, I will never give up. No matter what others say, I believe that you will be able to return to the way you were before. So, Even if it may be negligible, I will never give up. Don't worry, this time, I will definitely take good care of you..."
Even if she is asleep now and can't hear him at all, he has to make such a promise to her.
After Fei Yinan said this, Song Ruyi, who was lying on the bed soundly asleep, somehow broke free from his clenched hands, turned over, and held the sleeping little girl on the other side of the bed. Bun hand.
Only then did Fei Yinan spare time and energy to take a look at the little bun who was sleeping beside him.Seeing that her little face was also stained with tears, she thought for a while, she saw him shed tears just now, as if she was crying too, at this moment, she probably fell asleep because she was tired from crying.
Thinking about it, she should have more or less sensed that something was wrong with her mother now.Song Ruyi suddenly seemed to be a different person, how could she not notice it?
Thinking of this, Fei Yinan couldn't help but smiled wryly.In the past, Xiao Baozi always complained that his mother was too busy, always at work, and had no time to accompany her at all. This time, Song Ruyi had time to accompany her, and, maybe, the mother and daughter could become the best and most compatible couple. What about my friend... So, this matter, I really don't know if it's a good thing or a bad thing...
Thinking of this, Fei Yinan stood up, walked around to the other side of the bed, carefully wiped away the tears on Xiao Baozi's face, then gently moved Xiao Baozi's small body, and stuffed her into Song Ruyi's bed. Under the covers.
On the other side, Pei Aoting, who finally got out of the research room, returned to the locker room exhausted. Just as she turned on her cell phone that had been turned off, she received a message about Song Ruyi, saying that Song Ruyi was hospitalized again.
"Hospitalized... Her physical strength is really...intelligent, and her intelligence has regressed to six years old?"
Pei Aoting was very contemptuous at first, but a second later, she read out the content of the received message in disbelief, her face was full of astonishment.
But after a while, Pei Aoting calmed down again. After all, Song Ruyi's work and experience were all there. What she did before was already very dangerous. It is not impossible for things like mental regression to happen...
Thinking of this, Pei Aoting couldn't help chuckling, she really didn't know whether she should feel gloating or feel sad for Song Ruyi.
Although they are good girlfriends who grew up together, they can be said to talk about everything and know everything since they were young.But fate played tricks on the two of them. The father-killer she had been looking for was actually Song Ruyi's father.All these incidents piled up, making her feelings for Song Ruyi very complicated, she couldn't help hating, but she couldn't hate...
This time, the news of Song Ruyi's mental decline made her recall these things in her mind again.
There's no need to guess this message, since Fei Yinan sent it to her.She has a clear mind. He sent her this message not only because he wanted her to know about it, but also because he wanted her to visit her...
But, do I really want to visit Song Ruyi?After all, they really haven't seen each other for a while...
At this time, a small assistant who was working together also took off his gloves and approached the dressing room. Seeing Pei Aoting standing there in a daze, he couldn't help but ask, "Sister Pei, what's wrong with you? Are you too tired? Or something happened?" Are you kid? Why are you just sitting there?"
When Pei Aoting heard someone calling her, she came back to her senses, stared blankly at the little assistant, then quickly smiled and shook her head: "It's nothing, nothing. Maybe I just need to rest Alright."
After hearing what she said, the little assistant didn't want to ask any more questions, but saw that her face and expression were still not quite right, so she smiled and said while changing her coat: "Sister Pei, let me tell you, now You can control your time freely, so what is there to worry about? If there is something you want to do, do it quickly, we were finally 'let out' once! Next time we don't know and we will be released again. How long will it be 'off'!"
The little assistant's words began to circle wirelessly in Pei Aoting's mind.After thinking about it, she decided to compromise and go to the hospital where Song Ruyi was working to see her.
After all, they were also friends who had an old relationship.Moreover, there are too many connections in what they are doing.
Moreover, if Song Ruyi's intelligence really regressed, she would be a child who doesn't understand anything now. Could she let go of the heavy burdens she had been carrying all along?